
This Guy
Having suffered from Panic Attacks most of my adult life I have spent most of my waking life preparing or anticipating for that pain that wi


This is what a Panic Attack feels like...
I need to calm down….I need to calm down….I need to calm down….I need to calm down….this is a bad one….this is a bad one...this is a real ba


The Golden Rail of Diversity
I think it's a very clever quote “riding the Golden Rail of diversity” and I like it but to say that somebody has opportunities or advan


Good-Bye 2016!
I remember my mother many times during my youth looking at my father, either drunk and talking too much or sober and lying on his couch with


The Eve of my Prohibition
Without alcohol I won’t be able to self medicate and because I'm having anxiety attacks again I'm just worried as hell. What if I ca

Double Life - Double Standards
I'm dragging a little bit right now because I was up till 3:30 last night on second life I can't believe I spent that much time just


Death Benefits
“Who is going to take care of the dogs?” I remind myself that if anything happens to me my husband will receive all kinds of insurance money


Today was a Good Day!
Today was a really nice day, it was almost like old times before my husband’s health started deteriorating to the point that we rarely leave


And So I Walk...
I used to have anxiety attacks frequently during the 1980’s while I was in my 20’s all the way through my 30’s and they were so debilitating