

This Guy
Having suffered from Panic Attacks most of my adult life I have spent most of my waking life preparing or anticipating for that pain that wi


This is what a Panic Attack feels like...
I need to calm down….I need to calm down….I need to calm down….I need to calm down….this is a bad one….this is a bad one...this is a real ba


The Golden Rail of Diversity
I think it's a very clever quote “riding the Golden Rail of diversity” and I like it but to say that somebody has opportunities or advan


The Eve of my Prohibition
Without alcohol I won’t be able to self medicate and because I'm having anxiety attacks again I'm just worried as hell. What if I ca


Am I a Drunk?
My self-imposed restrictions on drinking begins in a few days so I suspect I will be drunk once or twice or maybe even three times more over


Tired of Life in General
I’m getting tired of life in general. I mean the monotony and the senselessness of this whole existence.


I'm Not in the Mood for Her Tonight
I will tell you honestly over the years there have been many many many times I have not been in the mood for her and I'm sure there have


Death Benefits
“Who is going to take care of the dogs?” I remind myself that if anything happens to me my husband will receive all kinds of insurance money


My Double Life
I went to bed really late last night because I was chatting on Second Life. I had a good time, I really enjoy Second Life especially since I


I’m Lonely and Bored and I must be an Alcoholic
Right now I have “beer” on my mind. I’m thinking about hopping in the car going to the 7-11 and buying a 6-pack of Yuengling. I am really fi